Tuesday, August 09, 2005
things are going around at work. about me. ha. i should have guessed that bitch was up to concocting somehting like tt. well. seems like. i am the easy prey this go. haven really gotten a good enough idea about it. but after analysing it through with baobbeii and my own sense... i guesss it could nv leave the subject about cash.
i should not have trusted that bitch so much. to think that i once think we were good as can be. people warned me about her... and i just listened through. i din think human could be that bad and cunning. well. guess this time i wan wrong. and no one more than myself got hurt in the process. i am pissed. i am. frustrated. to think that i commit so much, gave up so much during this 1 1/2 yrs and at the end of it... i get accused totally of something i nv will commit. man. maybe i am thinking too much before hand. but it cant be more than that. unless it is about my punctuality. but punctuality is not a very serious matter. well.. i feel so suffocated. i want to know what the fucking hell is really going on.. but i dun wish to face the maligning looks and whispers when my back is turned. man. yeah. i am sensitive. thats the least i ought to feel after sacrificing so much as a part-timer in this fucked-up-stingy company. i miss out on sch. i miss out on my social life. i miss out on my family. i miss out myself. everything comes work first. the good never get good. sad but true. well. will update as per what i will hear later at work. hopefully it cant be that bad. but considering my present situation, i think i might just break down. man.
got to finish all my part for the presentation and AR report by wed.. so that on thursday i can be free from it all. i need that day. crucial. yeah. i may be selfish in that sense.. but... do excuse me...
how fucking fucked up can this fuckingly fucked up world still be fucked up?
pouts lippie*
8/09/2005 01:30:00 PM
